I need a new avatar…. but the thought of using a photo of myself is repugnant.
So I thought, perhaps I could use one of my self portraits. “A self portrait,” I wisely told myself, “will show the world how I see myself rather than how I am seen by others.”
I began to trawl through my collection.
Here is one I did about 2 years ago. I quite liked it at the time, but looking at it now, it is a little flat, not enough detail.
No, can’t use this one.
Then there is this dreadful ¾ pose – this was from my oil painting class last year. It is a combination of trying to:
- hold the pose;
- avoid looking like one of Picasso’s women; and
- concentrate while an unidentified person’s tuneless whistle echoed through the cavernous studio.
Hence the title: “Stop whistling or I will stab you with my paintbrush.”
No, I don’t think I’ll use that one.
This one is a sketch done in my drawing class last year. Our teacher asked us to draw three figures on the page. Still reeling from a bad day the day before, I used a mirror to do three quick self-portrait sketches with the idea that each face would show a different emotion. Wow. Dark. Unusable.
Then there is this one. I like it. I think it looks like me. I think it looks a little wistful, a little sad, a little wise* – nice things, I think, for a portrait. But, oh, the outcry when I posted this on Facebook! I received a chorus of “you’re much prettier than that!”, “you don’t look that old”, “it doesn’t look at all like you” and worst of all, “Is this a cross between you and your husband?”
So, I thought I would try one from a photo taken by local photographer Nicole Anderson. Here is my painting. It looks like the photo. Nice colours… but I’m not sure I am comfortable with it as an avatar.
Sigh… Looks like I am stuck with my Twitter picture of a watermelon with a knife in it.
*This is a cunning deception. I am not at all wise.
To see more of Nicole Anderson’s work: http://www.nicoleanderson.com.au/